Today is hard

I miss you. I miss you I miss you I miss you.

You were my best friend. My lover. My alloftheabove.

I want to talk to someone. I can’t do anything but write.

Every day I’m fine until it hits me.

 

And when it hits me, here I go again like a ton of bricks that just won’t stop weighing down.

Ifuckedupifuckedupifuckedup.

Life is so unfair, and of course, now I think only of my own pain. But how are you struggling?

 

I miss you. This is all I know.

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June 13th, 2013

One day I will buy a slate
To write my sins
And wash it clean
I wonder if it will
Absolve my guilt
Or show just how
Much guilt
Admeans. To write away our sorrows
In the grass
Or kiss our open wounds
Afflected
I wonder if this solemn task
Is really lonely
As Projected.

The Devils beauty

Is all I have 

And alone I Burn 

Because of 

It. 

Save me

Save meSave meHow many times will I begTo the God within? Maybe one day he willListen.Maybe one day I’ll finally leave this earth For good.

Night

Fading consciousness Coaxing faithSalvation Of the dark Begged for newRealities”Please”The last noteTo coast acrossThe painful Seizure of Heartache I’m not asking for muchI’m just asking for it all.

This is not

Love

Waiting in bed

For

Another to

Hold

The

Other

I’ll Never

Say Yes

To a red Flag

I’ve learned my lesson

Even when it comes

Dressed in a package

That says

“I love you”

He told me

He loved

Me

And

Kissed me

I

Hated the

Taste

Of those

Words

In this

Position

They felt

Soiled

And

Overused

“No”

I said

“Do you want

Me

To show you

How much

I love you?”

He reached

Towards a place

He thought

He had

Ultimate

Control

As if

Being there

Would make Me

Love

Me.

“No.”

I stated.

No.

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Dad

Tell

Me

Something good

About my

Life

Because

Right now

I feel

Like

I’m

Dying

——–

Tell

Me

How I can be here

In this place

Such

A

Beautiful

Place

And feel

Like the

Loneliest

Person.

How can I

Be

Dying?

I look just

Like her

You know.

My mother.

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